Social Anxiety

I have a little rant. Just about past and present crap.I had someone who I thought was my best friend,  would stick by me though thick and thin. But when the going got tough she totally bailed on me. At least that’s the way I feel about it. A little while back, when I was married my husband got really crappy with my oldest daughter. I told my friend about it and she said I could come stay with her for the weekend. So I packed me and the kids up and went over there. Of course I had been wanting to leave the man, but had no where to go and no money to get a place so my friend insisted that I stay there with her and her family. She said she would be fine with it, that we could stay as long as we needed, if you’re here for a year it’s ok. On and on about how fine she was with it. The kids and I had been there for 2 months and I actually thought things were going ok. Of course it got a little rough every now and then but I thought we were managing pretty well. Until one morning I was outside smoking and she came walking out of the house with a suitcase. She said that she couldn’t take us being there anymore and that she was taking herself and her kids to stay with her  parents until me and my kids were gone. (This woman is the wife of my brother) So I’m left there with my brother and my kids, and his wife and kids are gonna be staying elsewhere. wth was I supposed to do. I couldn’t stay there knowing full well that I was the reason she left. I don’t want to be the one that’s blamed for breaking up their marriage. So I packed me and the kids up and went back to live with my husband. The way I see it is that she kicked me out without actually telling me to get out. She could have sat down and told me that it was stressing her out to much or what have you. You don’t just pack yourself and kids up and leave your home and husband like that. And put the blame on me. For me that was the end of our friendship. Fast forward to this year,  she went back to school to become a hygienist and she was always complaining about how she doesn’t get to spend enough time with her kids. Yet every time I see her she doesn’t have them, where are they? At the babysitters. Ok, so she’s just sitting around at grandma’s complaining that she doesn’t see them, yet she left them with the sitter. That makes no sense to me what-so-ever. The other she was talking about going out to the bar with her classmates. Her classmates are like 22 and 23 and single. She’s almost 30 and has 2 kids and a husband sitting at home. Why the hell is she out bar hopping. She already spends 2 or 3 nights a week at school. Why not go home to be with your family. Maybe it’s just how I was raised, but it just doesn’t seem right to me. She doesn’t seem right.

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