Social Anxiety

I don’t know what my problem is lately. Every little thing bothers me. It seems like I’m happy with nothing. I’ve been so moody it’s not even funny.  Everyone gets on my nerves. I don’t know if I need to go back on prozac or what. I asked Brian about it last night but he won’t really say because he doesn’t want to upset me. He’s afraid to say anything because I get upset so easy.

He kept calling me silly and it drove me nuts. Bob used to always say I was being silly whenever I would get upset about stuff. And Bob didn’t use it in a nice way. How am I supposed to know how Brian means it when all that is there is text? Words on a screen, you hear them the way your mind perceives them. And to me it wasn’t good. Sometimes Brian says things that Bob has said. Did I make bob treat me the way he did? Is it all my fault that things were crappy with us for so long? Is that going to happen with Brian? What if I’m just the cause of all the problems?  Maybe it was me that made him act like that.

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